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Monday, February 13, 2012

Baby Blues...

Four weeks have gone by since Konner was born and I feel like myself again.. Welllll... I still need to lose my baby weight, but that can come later!! I am talking about emotionally... I think this time my baby blues were the worst.. Not sure if it's because I was so spoiled when I had Brandt in NH, having my mom and sister in the same town as me..always calling and checking up on me, seeing if we needed anything, etc. With the first 4, my sister was either here, or coming soon after baby was born.. This time, ya I have my big kiddos to help (and Kirsten did A LOT), but I felt kind of shut off from life.. Being "stuck" farther out, and nobody calling/texting to see how I was doing.. Tho one person did ask if I needed anything, and I don't really know her at all. So that made me feel blessed.... Oh we had lots of meals, and for that I am extremely grateful to Taj, for setting up for us.. We were blessed in that.. It was just emotionally I felt far away and detached from everybody, Tim and kids included. I was weepy, and feeling like what is my purpose in life, etc.  One thing I am VERY thankful for, is my hubby!! He is so in tune to me, that one day I was feeling very blue, but thought I was hiding it well.. Ha, we climb in bed that night and he says "you have been pretty down lately, haven't you?" I was like, wow, he knows me so well!! He would get up at night with Konner when he was crabby so I could sleep, cuz he was so worried about me.. Then one day last week he tells me how cute I am and that I am looking more like myself!! (and I was feeling like myself too) Can I just say, BLESSED?! I have the best husband for sure.. (go ahead and argue, I am glad you think yours is the best!) Anyway, the point of this post is, I don't know!! Haha... just figured I would share and encourage everyone to look out for each other and encourage one another.. Like I "confessed" on Tsasa's FB status.. I can hide my feelings behind a "happy face". (From most people that is!) So lets just remember all the new mommy's and daddy's out there!!

4 comments:

  1. You are indeed blessed. Reading this makes me weepy. Love you and miss your smiling face.

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  2. Glad you are back to your old self!

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  3. That's right! We all need prayers when we have a new baby that keeps us from getting enough sleep that we can actually recharge our brains to think usefully! LOL! Love you! :)

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  4. Aww, love, you are in my prayers! Don't hide the hurt if it continues. I've been down that path and it is no fun. Blessings to you and yours, especially that sweet baby!

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